Affair

It's times like this I want to betray everybody around me.

My boyfriend is the best thing that's ever happened to me.  At this point, I feel like having an affair with another man. He's away.

And then he'll abandon me like everyone else. Nothing lasts. Everything dies.

I don't deserve anyone.  I can only be someone's mistress. The one that gets fingers pointed at. Disgusting. Dirty. Ugly. Foul. Useless.